Almost Over...

After all the sleepless nights and stressful days... all the waiting and disappointments... and everything that made every bit of my life hopeless... It seems that it is almost over...

I'm on it! Tomorrow's flight to Boracay! And truly, I am very very happy about it. It is just like having the exact expectation in front of you. What I visioned about from the past is now happening ahead of me. And for that, I can't really believe that it's happening.

But I'll going to miss so many things... family, friends, my old-life... everything that comprises me as a whole. I never got a nice chance to meet each of my friends for all of us were bus the whole day. And I just had enough time to pack my things and prepare to embark on my journey tomorrow. I will miss everyone... all of you guys... from my real friends and family to every acquainted person on my E-Life. But I promise to keep up and I will tr my very best to keep you posted on my life on Boracay. For me, nothing defies the power of Internet. Guys!!! OMG!!! I will miss everyone of you!!!

Well... I am really excited and I can't wait anymore... For the fact that it'll all be "first", it really thrills me a lot!

So... Hopes are always high... Wish me luck... and I need everyone's support for this new adventure of my life.

Bora!!! Here I come!!!

So Funny!!!

Hahaha it is so funny and too stupid of me!!!

Hehehe... this is why I am having weird feelings about what's going on lately...

Hahaha... maybe I got too excited of going to Boracay...

On my previous post, "I Hate Sa Farewells", I indicated that I will be leaving Sunday, January 19... hahaha I was so stupid of not checking the calendar... hahaha... I just noticed that I looked from the 2008 calendar... OMG... January 19, 2009 is a MONDAY!!! SO FUNNY!!!

I Hate Sad Farewells...

If I will be lucky enough... well... I will be leaving as soon and as early as Monday (January 19, 2009) for my new work destination... Boracay!!!

It is a really really great news for me and for everyone who knows me. I really wanted to travel and to give myself my own independence and my own life which is not preoccupied with mostly family matters...

But however the good news is, there are always sad farewells... and in my case, I'll just disappear from the scene... no farewells... no crying... no goodbyes... I really hate saying goodbyes...

Lately I am feeling so much lonely and very emotional for I am just counting hours before I leave my home... my life for almost 20 years... everything I have all my life... And then I'll embark on a journey alone and be a stranger to strangers. The saddest part is, I might not get a chance to see my very-missed friends... I've been doing all I could do contact each of them but it seems that every one of them are busy with their on lives... well... that makes me very sad... Yet, I do understand all of their reasons and I know how hard for them to manage their time and insert me into their schedules...

Anyways, and whatever happens, the journey will still start on the said date... and I can't do anything more about it... Now, I've been giving myself the most special time and taking preparations for this adventure of my life. This would be a real adventure... journey to a place I've never been, meeting the strangest people on the strangest situation... and maybe the most challenging part is, I'll get surrounded mostly by water. In fact, its not really a problem for I am a "water person", I am just having this queer feeling of being surrounded by water and having a limited space. Imagine it, a very huge island... isolated... and you hear the rushing of the waves all of the time... the sun is set so high, so bright, and scorching hot... wow... I hope I will survive being a cast-away.

But... as the time passes by and the clock eats up my remaining hours of being at home while the rest of my "used to" life changes every minute, I really can't help but to cry... thinking of what life will I have there and what will happen back here whilst I'm there... I thought before that I could live freely of worries about home when I get a chance to be away... now, I am starting to get home-sick already...

"I know, Bella. Believe me, I know. It's like you've taken half my self away with you."

-Edward Cullen (Twilight)

Hopes are high... I should not be too vulnerable like this for such things at being away from home... I should keep myself strong. I know they will be good even I'm not at home. There are always a first and in my case, I already had been away from home... I bet it has been a good practice for this time around. But I can't really ignore my worries at all... it is just like a mother worrying for her children when she goes to work and have the kids all by themselves at home... Well... wish me luck!!!

"Will of the Wind"

I spent half my life
Looking at the reasons things must change.
And half my life trying to make them stay the same.
But love would fade like summer into fall;
All that i could see was a mystery,
It made no sense at all.

The will of the wind, you feel it and then,
It will pass you blowing steady.
It comes and it goes, and god only knows,
You must keep your sails on ready.
So when it begins, get all that you can;
You must befriend the will of the wind.

I spent so many hours
Just thinkin' 'bout the way things might have been.
And so many hours trying to bring the good times back again.
And so it goes for lonely hearted fools;
They let their days just slipe away,
Until they give into...

The will of the wind, you feel it and then,
It will pass you blowing steady.
It comes and it goes, and god only knows,
You must keep your sails on ready.
So when it begins, get all that you can;
You must befriend the will of the wind.

And god only knows...

So when it begins, get all that you can;
You must befriend the will of the wind...

Lightning and Thunder...

Are you afraid of getting hit by lightning??? Of course, everyone does! Hahaha...
What about thunder??? Do you like the rumbling clouds above you??? Now, the feeling I feel right now is just like having the two scenario together. Getting struck by lightning and the deafening sound of thunder.

I've been wanting of being on a situation that wholly depends on what decision to make and to where I'll go. I never come to think of getting confused and doubtful about each twist and turns. And really... now I know the feeling of getting pressured... not totally pressured but it is almost there. And how will you make a decision if you will just base it on half lose and half win situation. Should it be right to go for only a win-win plan? Or again, I should take risk on a very cautious one.

My career and my entire life will be affected. My 2009 will get ruined if I make a wrong move. Getting hit by lightning or rumbled thunder, I don't care anymore. The feeling right now is worst. I am expecting so much from myself... and my family also does expect. Plus, the people who are hoping that I'll go with them as they and the company progress are waiting for such decisions to be made... what will I do? I have been wishing to be in such situation yet right now I am very confused and lost. Every time I try to get a chance to think... OMG... I always end up spacing-out. And the result... nothing... nothing but nothing.

I now hope and wish... that I could have a chance to think clearly. Trying to put every details and requirements and standards that I have for getting the offers, the jobs, and lastly closing the deal and signing the contract... I hope that I will come-up of a good decision that I won't regret for the entire span of the contract or even my whole professional career...

All I wanted is the best deal available. And when I say best deal, I mean the best for both my life and career... and also beneficial for my family and friends... Wow!!! Why is it hard to come-up with a good decision???

Please... I need a peace of mind... let me think... I have to...

Or maybe... I will ask for a sign???

PLENTY OF COPIES!!!

Hi guys!!!

Who said that the Philippines is running low on Twilight Saga books??? I think that is also a false rumor... ANOTHER HOAX!!!

I just visited POWERBOOKS GLORIETTA to reserve my own copies of the books... I had the photos of stacked TWILIGHT, NEW MOON, ECLIPSE, and BREAKING DAWN...

I've heard a news that National Bookstore outlets are fully stocked with paperbacks and hard-bounds as well...

What are you waiting for????

GO! GO! GO!

NEVER TOO TIRED!!!

Wow!!! My old,sleepless,tireless, and boring days are now over...

And to feel is to believe... I am really amazed on how my life for this year is going-really good and amazing. Each passing day is such a surprise and and every moment of it is to be treasured. Yet there are times of worthless events but least of these reasons will make the whole meaning of having a great time right now.

Since last week, good news and wonderful things for my career never stops on coming on my way. I am really excited for which path to choose now... and I am very cautious of having wrong decisions. But there is a sort of problem, I really can't manage of pulling my schedule on track and on-time.

After spending months at home and hiding from the world and everything comprises it, I am literally "unaware" of the changes that took place while I'm not around. I cannot predict the traffic jams and forecast the weather, even though there are alerts on the television, before I get unemployed, I used to managed to avoid these things. Now, it adds to the challenge of getting to an interview on time and to present myself nicely.

But never too tired!!! No pain, no gain!!! Hard-earned things for me are treasures and I treat it as an exciting factor to flame-up my life. And for real, I am really happy that my life is on-track and I am looking forward for more wonderful things to come.

I don't like to be selfish of wanting everything for me but that is how I feel it right now... the things I wanted are the things I will have sooner or later...

Anyways, I finished reading 'The Devil Wears Prada". And yes I know what is on your mind right now... why the hell I read such book??? NO!!! You are wrong... I get so many good things about life and career from that book. And it really taught me well on how to be more aware about my career and be more professional on dealing on things connected to it. Even though the story revolves mostly on the feminine-ish aspect, I don't really care if it is like that since it became very useful of preparing myself on embarking my new journey on the professional world.

Days will pass and I am seeing myself working and cooking inside the kitchen again. I hope that I will also see myself working on such a very nice place and to somewhere I really wanted to be. Well... that depends on how will I decide and what company I'll choose... Hehehe I hope there will be plenty of good offers... there is this feeling, I wanted to get really really pressure one day of what decision to make... for I never had a chance to get to that point ever in my life.

Wish me luck guys!!!

HOPES ARE HIGH!!!

Lately, I decided to invest some of my time on reading this particular book entitled "The Devil Wears Prada". Yeah... I know, I am just curious of what a common New Yorker's life is really is but as I go on every page, the story does not really revolves around the life of commoners. Still, I continued reading I am almost read half of the book... and I am getting this idea of New York is worse than a jungle...

Anyways, as the 2009 seems to pass too quickly for it is already the ninth day of the first month, wow, everything I am expecting do really unfolds the way I want it. Last year, maybe around November, I am very down and really hopeless of not having my dream job at Burj Al Arab-and even though it is just a slight chance for that of coming true-I decided to look for local jobs.

And after months of being anxious and having not slept for nights because of the stress of being jobless, 2009 seems to be really positive on me. It is just last Monday that I received a call from Shangri-la Boracay and it did really surprise me for the fact that I never expected them to call me back after months and months of waiting for just a single call for interview. And here I am, very nervous and quite afraid for the interview with their Executive Chef... i hope that I will be convincing and presentable enough for tomorrow's.

Furthermore, good news about 2009 never stops from there. I had several interview invitation for various establishments of notable places and I am really shocked of how my day after day goes by. I am really thankful right now that I am staring to get calls to the companies I applied last year and I am looking forward of getting a very nice offer and a wonderful career as an opening sargo for my very much awaited 2009...

Hopes are high and I am really expecting that "this is really is it!" I know that 2008 with some tragic events and wrong decisions are made, I want to be very cautious of not arriving on the same situations again for this time. And maybe I should be alert for all the warnings and signs so I could avoid mishappenings as early as I could.

Well... let us just say that I wanted to have the very best of life to offer this year. I believed that I've started the year right, so right now... I am on the right track!!!

Wish me the best of luck!!!

Can't Get Enough of My Day!!!

Hahaha... I was so busy early this day and OMG!!! I was too tired I fall asleep as early as 7:00PM and here I am trying to catch up some more sleep since tomorrow will be another busy day..

By the way... hehehe who needs a job and who is interested to work on a fine dinning resto and bar at the fort??? hehehe search the job details on Jobstreet.com.ph and look for "The Establishment"

I wish there will be a friend to apply so I will have a friend who I really know while working...

Wish me luck guys... I am very positive about this and I could feel that sooner or later I will be back at the kitchen and the limelight of Culinary Arts!!!


JOB: CHEF - The Establishmet (The Fort Entertainment Complex)

I Miss The Pevensie Kids!!!

At last, after two long days of reading with intense imagination, I finished the whole series of The Chronicles of Narnia by C.S. Lewis. And it really gave me a good time of exploring the fantasy world with all of its characters especially the Pevensie kids that I truly missed so much...

Ahm... The Magician's Nephew with Digory and Polly gave me the hardest time to imagine for it deals with so much of the beginning of every beginnings of Narnia. I've felt that my mind is going to burst with so much of the imagination I am doing just to make it a perfect tie-in with my reading. And as appreciating that I could be, I finished it with the craving to know the early history of Narnia before Lucy first entered Narnia and how King Frank and Queen Helen reigned and made Narnia the freest place for all creatures. And I got curious by the way Jadis managed to live that long and became powerful enough to cast the Hundred Years of Winter into Narnia if all Narnians and Aslan were aware of her being evil. But I think that would be a mystery for everyone for there are no any other stories about it.

It did not take me so long to prepare on reading the last installment of the series which is The Last Battle. Normally, it always took me two to three days of reading just one book because I have some other scheduled activities, but this time, just because I am so excited to know the ending of all the stories, I started right after I had the last drop of my midnight tea after The Magician's Nephew. And I was not able to keep track of time for I've started imagining while I'm still of the last part of the Magician's Nephew, like an epilouge. When I begun on reading and entered the ninth chapter of the book, it was already 2:00 AM. So I've decided, since it is Sunday, to continue reading until twilight and the first humming of the roosters.

Through the journey with King Tirian, Eustace, and Jill, and with other Narnians, I noticed this insight that this book is really the last of all lasts. For every turn of the page becomes more and more tragic for each character, and there went a moment they fell really hopeless of not having Narnia back from the very witty Ape yet puppet-like dumb under Ginger the cat and a Calormene. But as more pages and events are revealed, hope arises for those who have a strong faith and a brave heart.

On the chapter where Eustace and Jill come back to Narnia to help Tirian and at the same time I remembered that the Pevensie kids were told by Aslan that they couldn't go back to Narnia, I had this boring feeling and became sad that I won't be able to see them anymore. But as soon as the climax of the story arises, there showed my favorite and missed characters of Narnia. And the destructed damned Narnia started to fall apart with its ill-faithed creatures and men. Yet all those who are good were able to enter the real world of the real Narnia and there they've found their long lost love ones and all the people who were there when Aslan started creating Narnia.

So much into that, I know that everyone knew the story so I'll end the story-telling on that part. I am also surprised when Reepicheep welcomed everyone on the golden gates of Narnia, for really I knew from the Voyage of the Dawn Treader that he's safely arrived as Aslan's country for in fact not Aslan's country but the real world of Narnia... hehehe I was so happy of seeing the valiant mouse again... and knowing he'll live forever with all other Narnians he used to live with the old shadowlands Narnia before... and it was a shock for me when the story revealed that all "human" characters of the story, except Susan who were not a friend of Narnia for some intriguing issues which is not clear to me until now, died on a railway accident. But I believed that they won't make any regret of dying on such a manner for they have died for something they long for a long time. And for me, it is so wonderful of escaping the real world if you know that you don't really belong to that world but in fact, belonged to a fantasy one like Narnia...

As a conclusion, it has been a while since I also started journeying through Narnia when I started reading the first book (as per production) and discovered how good a life could be of being in Narnia. But as what everyone know and really it is the truth, Narnia is fictional and only real to CS Lewis' imaginations. But I will still believe that Narnia only belongs to him but belonged to everyone who believes that there is such a place called Narnia...

"As freest of all the places known and unknown...
To boundaries of worlds by worlds...
Dreaming as long as I want...
There will be Narnia..."

- brangien

Cancer Outlook for 2009

Cancer Outlook for 2009
Cancer: 6/22 – 7/22

As we enter the Golden Age of Aquarius, you are ready to receive all the blessings that are there for you, especially in the areas of communications and relationships.

Being understood and getting the responses you desire helps you believe in your ability to succeed and reach your highest potential. Your focus is excellent, and you know what you want. Use this to your advantage when working with others, but don't demand that they see your ideas as visionary -- even if you do. As ideas start flowing freely to you, make sure you articulate your insights clearly.

This year, you will be strongly motivated by transformation, especially in romantic unions. When balanced in your heart and mind, you easily express your emotions and are quick to support others. It is important for you to have a partner who is willing to explore different ways of doing things. You will experience many changes as you learn new ways of expressing yourself.

As you make this shift, avoid putting restrictions on yourself and stopping the flow. You are learning to behave in a new positive way, not worrying about the outcome. This will curb your need to control situations and enable you to take your relationships -- work and personal -- to a higher level of consciousness.


Source: "Yahoo! Horoscopes"

First day of 2009

Ahm.. me... hehehe... I've spent my first few hours of 2009 with, of course, Twilight... Hahaha... after having the midnight meal and celebrating the New Year, wow, I felt so full of the food I ate last night... and as what everyone believes that it is bad to sleep after eating, and as if I will be able to sleep on that condition... I'd decided to watch Twilight after washing up...

Yeah.. it is really addicting, and to tell you more, I am so excited for New Moon to come... hehehe as if November 20, 2009 is just days ahead... hahaha yeah... days and days ahead after several months... well... I have to endure it... and maybe, there will be something to come on my way to distract me to all of this addiction to Twilight Saga... hehehe... reading Ebooks and formulating new recipes and doing the everyday household chores and all my activities everyday including surfing the net, doing my blog, playing on-line game, playing PS2 game, browsing magazines and broadsheets... hahaha add my daily exercise and jogging... my one-hour bath... and my 30 minutes after bath... hehehe I have so much time in the world right now...

Wow... if I have a job right now, hahaha I bet to do all of these things on a daily basis will be impossible... I am really pretty bored at home. The worst thing is, I don't have any of my savings/earnings left to my Girbaud. I just wish that before January of 2009 end, I hope to find a job. Well... all my hopes for this year are high... so don't annoy me of so many dramas and so whatever because I am pretty determined and focused to have a good life this 2009...

Hehehe my New Year's resolution??? Ahm... to tell you frankly, I don't keep any list aside from my monthly shopping list, my Most Anticipated Movies list, my gift list, Gong Yoo's home-coming countdown, new korean movies and series list, American shows list, and my friends list... hehehe and to all of that, I don't think I've mentioned any New Year's resolution...

Yeah... maybe I'm hypocrite of saying so... but I really don't. Put it like this, well, I think, my everyday is always a new life for me or in some cases, it takes a week or more, but I always try to reflect every now and then to what is happening in my life for each passing moment... most of the time, I do reflect when there is silence in me and the surrounding. And for me, it is easier and stress-free of not holding on just a visible list for what to change to your life.

I don't say that there are more to keep than to improve to myself... A big NO!!! From my physical aspects, if there will be a list, OMG, it will be long by then... Hehehe for a person like me who never been contented of everything... a really OMG!!! Hahaha... I don't like to discuss what do I have in my mind for what is ahead for me this year, this just makes me hopeless and afraid of being disappointed... I am the person of "let us see what will happen next." But I firmly appointed two things that will surely be abided soon. First, as I've always wished to have, I want to make this year as happy as I could and I have... but not to be restrained and be occupied of unreal happiness... I'm sure of what I wanted when I say about being happy. And second, this will be really weird... hahaha... and suddenly I fall on thinking again... The words for the next rule disappeared from my mind... What was it again??? Ahm... I nearly forgot... but it is about the meaning of life to as a whole... well... I forgot it already... hehehe... I'll just write another post when the words are in my mind again...

But for now... I am hoping of a better year this 2009.
I wish everyone to have the best year of their lives this year!!!