Thursday, May 14, 2009

Returned in Solitude...

This is Home (by Switchfoot)

I've got my memories
They're always
Inside of me
But I can't go back
Back to how it was
I believe now
I've seen too much
But I can't go back
Back to how it was
Created for a place
I've never known

This is home
Now I'm finally
Where I belong
Where I belong
Yeah, this is home
I've been searching
For a place of my own
Now I've found it
Maybe this is home
Yeah, this is home

Belief over misery
I've seen the enemy
And I won't go back
Back to how it was
And I got my heart
Set on
What happens next
I got my eyes wide
It's not over yet
We are miracles
And we're not alone

And now after all
My searching
After all my questions
I'm gonna call it home
I got a brand new mindset
I can finally see
The sunset
I'm gonna call it home

Now I know
Yeah, this is home

I've come too far
Now I won't go back
This is home.


"The best part has not yet begun... right now, all good things come in my life."

Happiness has joined me when I came back from my Boracay sojourn. I emptied my shattered, deprived, and stressed heart before I left my unit at Kamalig. I've worn the nicest attitude before I landed back in Manila and greeted "home" with the warmest smile. It feels so good to be back home... and it really feels so very very nice to feel that I belong. Include the fact that you know that you find you life back...

"Hope" and "Prayer" aren't just plain words... they are created for us to be positive in life... to hope and all that. And I am really thankful that when the time I prayed and hoped... there He was listening... and thanks to those people who help me to have my life back and bring it where it really belongs... And what makes it better is that my life now seems to be perfect... just like walking on a straight line. After all what happened in the island, I never thought that I could still feel this kind of happiness. I wake up each morning with an energized feeling... so warm... so good. I could wear a smile as much as I could without any pretentions. I see the worth, a better worth, of everything in my life while I go to work everyday.

Career... the good news is, I get what I really wanted from my job right now. Operations and Management, as planned and as expected. I have flexible schedule. Respect is given to me by my staff unconditionally and professionally. The best of all, they appreciate everything I do for them and they let me feel that I am also important. Who cares for the brand if they cannot deliver well?! Who cares for a reputable company if the company itself can't fulfill its promise?! Who cares for stability if there are bad people who will always pull you down for their sake?! I don't care! Because I found a place where I can really soar... a place that I could work happily.

Family... hmmm... of course they are one of the reasons why I am so happy right now. My mother is back from Japan from her years of trying to find livelihood for us, well, to raise the family and all. And to see the old times like deja vu... I get teary-eyed everytime all of us dine for lunch or supper and to experience the old days when we were really a big very happy family... Now, we begin to get close to one another after a very long depression we had for years. And I am thankful that little by little, problems get fixed and curved lines straightens as days goes by.

Friends... well... I appreciate more my BERKS now. It is a good thing to know that each of us are taking good paths of our chosen professions. Many graduated and now pursuing a good start for their career... some still doing hard work for their studies. But all in all, I am pleased to know that we are growing up, and professionally speaking, we are improving. Can't wait for the next get together... we are planning to have a night out to dine,drink, and watch movie too. I miss you BERKS!!!

LOVE... I am happy to say that I am in-love. Yes, there are times I really get crazy about it but what can I do... for me, Love is a crazy thing. I went back to a person who I consider my soulmate... who I know needs me... who I am sure I am in-love with. No more taking back... I know she is my forever... I hope no "roller coaster ride" for the mean time because I am happy to experience the life I am having now... Sorry to tell you guys that no further insights about this part now, I don't want to prejudice the good thing I am having now.

All in all... I have returned to the place where I belong. A place where I see my life is... a place I feel at home. Yes, there will be worries and sudden change of events in my life... who cares now? I am home and I am safe. I am happy. Hold backs... Of Course! I am still afraid to feel down and negative. I wish this good cycle of my life continue to go on forever... as in forever in bliss and contentment. I hope no more major, life-changing happenings again... I hope I won't worry for the next day... I wish this happiness will go on.

See... this is a place where I belong... and I am HOME!