A New Day

"Every ending has a new beginning... for me... Everyday is a new day..."
What was life before everything happened in my life??? Where am I before I found a really crazy love??? What am I doing before things got tangled up???
Hahaha... it is really funny looking back to my footsteps... I always see how foolishly I am becoming every time I stepped on love. How I wished I was careful enough... and how I wish I never trusted too much. But unfortunately, I loved to my limits so eventually I got hurt... That's fine, I'll just note this happening as a one good experience how I got so crazy on the thing we call "love".
Life before... maybe five to six months ago... well, I could say that my life was in a very good state. I am working on the job that I like and even paid a lot for it. Having a very good time with friends and colleagues. Pampering myself with all life's goodness. Having the things that I like and doing things that I love. Dealing with my problems really really well and reaching a helping hand to someone's business. I felt really happy and successful for the life I had before.
But right now... I feel so empty. And I think I became to someone who is not qualified to be called as "myself". And to tell the truth... I really hate it.
So what can I do from now on??? Well, the first thing I should do is to eliminate the main factor that demotes me as a better person. Second is to focus everything on a goal while having a good plan on the side and some back-ups just to be safe. Then, third... ahm... bringing the pieces back together like what it was before. Fourth would be... enjoying the life that is waiting for me while doing steps one, two, and three. And lastly, keep on reminding myself not to make the same mistake again. Hehehe it is not bad at all to make some precautions for my fragile heart right... but damn these things!!! It is so hard to do... But I don't have any choice.
I hope I will be in good shape in no time. And I will be glad to tell everyone that I just come back eager and better.
Right now... I am officially "single".... and tomorrow will be a new day waiting for me...

When You're All Alone

If you feel alone, what are the things that you usually do to take away the loneliness that you feel? Hmmm... do you cry on a corner and ask why you were left all behind? Or you are the person who goes out and enjoy a happy moment himself.
What is usually the reason of your loneliness? Is it that you feel no one cares for you or just simply everyone were all busy to hang up with you?
Then how do you manage being lonely? Do you keep it to yourself or are you the type who goes out and just enjoy a happy moment even by yourself?
Once or twice in our life... actually there are a lot of times we will feel being lonely. Loneliness brought of being left behind, being left-out, and having yourself too occupied by the things that makes you so lonely. It is normal for someone who is affectionate for someone who wants to be in a crowd, someone who feels that he need to be surrounded, or to someone who used to be with a companion.
It really feels so nice joining your friends do so much activity... share of thoughts, playing, laughing, and all the things your group constantly do. Nice, it is always a good thing being with your friends right? The feeling on a social crowd... when was the last time you feel it?
It is a matter of fact... all of us needs to have social life, but there are also chances that being alone makes it feel better than joining a lot of peers. We are oblivious of the things that we could do while we are alone... just like knowing and discovering more secrets about yourself, looking for some adventure, or somewhere that will give you a new meaning of yourself.
So when you are all alone or you just feel lonely, do not worry... it is not only you who feel that on the moment! Just cheer up and look around you! There might be things that could make yourself busy. Don't get impatient for your friends being so much attached to their own worlds right now... they also need to have their own time for themselves... a time without you and your friends. Being alone for a moment is not that bad... what should make you worry is being alone for the rest of your life...

A Good Life

Have you ever wished that what if you could choose the life that you like? A life that will always favor on you? A life you always wanted?
In my twenty years of living, I came across to many ups and downs of my life. And there are so many times I became regretful about my own life. But there are also times that I feel so much fortunate having a good life compared to some other people. What will I do if ever I could draw the life I wish I have...
If I will be born again... I still want to live a normal life. "Normal" means a life balanced with fortune, goodness, misery, etc. But I want to replace my power of making people happy to try a new skill... the power of love. Most of the time, I make people happy. Making them happy in all the means that I know. Showing them the goodness that I have. Sharing the gifts that I could share. I feel happy for them every time I am successful with my goals for them. But inside I am thinking of something... why do I still feel empty when I am able to make someone happy??? Maybe it is the fact that happiness from making someone else happy is far more different from the happiness as a product of love.
Through my journey, I had my own share of story about love. There are memories that I won't forget, there are times that I really want to erase, and there are events I wish to happen again. With all that, still I am trapped on the place where I am not familiar with. A place where sadness meets me. When I will have the opportunity to write a new story of myself, I want to put all the happy scripts... no dull moments... everything is all about love and being happy.
Life depends in our decision. God gave us the chance to write our own stories but He gave us the theme, that would be our destiny. Everyone has their own dilemmas on their "play", everybody needs to be in the "revalida". But, what will set your novel apart from anything else, is when you write it with all your heart. The readers will see for sure... how amazing a story you have wrote.

Friends Forever...

Hmmm... what will you feel if you think after all the miseries that happened (after a storm), it seems that everything in your life turns so good and so right. Yes, it really feels so good having a brighter day everyday.
I have forgotten all the unfortunate things of the past... and I have reconciled with a person... and that would be the one who turned to be my best friend. Knowing what happened before makes me bitter on the earlier years but I feel so burdened loosing a friend. So why should I keep the pride than a friend right?
It really took time for us to conceive. Well, if you know the whole story you will understand. But we are so young when that happened, we are still on the a wrong comprehension of life and love before. Now that we get more mature enough, had our own lives and own experiences about love, gladly, we grew better. It is really funny that before we almost killed each other but right now, we are making everything to be sworn brothers. It is so nice to have a best friend that could help you in everything and in any ways.
To my best friend... dude... thanks for always helping me... and being there for me. I am so happy having you as my best friend.

Unexpected...

I think it is normal for a couple to fight... which is not right is when you don't ever fight... That is when the "trust" for each other comes.
When I watched a movie, I fetched a saying "In a relationship, romance should only be second to friendship." Having your partner more of a best friend than a lover makes sense. When the romance is gone, that is when things all go wrong... but if you stay best of friends, you still have the trust to each other. Love always change, you don't know if the feelings you feel right now will be the same after a minute or an hour. So it is important that the two of you remain friends forever. Then after that, you could start loving each other again.
Thus, having a peace of mind than being paranoid is always a help to anyone. On my situation, I got blinded too much of "everything" that made me closed to any reasons. As I said, trust is needed to make a relationship work. Well, I am not perfect and I am not a professional when it comes to love, that is why most of the time... I am on the roller coaster ride of my life... We need to be open and understanding to everything our partners have to say. Reasons are not there just to ignore it, it should be fully accepted.
Love has so many unexpected courses. It is our decision if we are going to have any plans or not. We cannot tell where are we going holding it and until when can we hold on it. It is really unexpected so why care for what will be happening next. Give a big TRUST to your partner and gamble everything that is left to you. But many says that you should leave something for yourself. Really, I don't know. L.O.V.E is really a C.R.A.Z.Y thing. Hehehe, but don't be a liar... everyone likes to feel "in-love"... it is like craving for chocolate for a week and then indulging yourself with chocolates in just few minutes. Why regret if you feel good about something?