Do you believe in fate? Well, I also don't believe on it before, not until I personally experienced it. Ahm... I guess this is one of the rare chance that a person will have on his entire life and the next would be on his or her new life. But for me... I think I found someone whose fate is tied with me... And she is the one who gives me now the inspiration and the love I really need the most...
I just met her over a well-known social network. I think that was three to four months ago when I first saw her viewed my profile. So, as a return, I visited her own profile and I got curious about her... and I bravely send her a message asking for her mobile number... then there's the start of the connection. At first, I am so hesitant to pursue what I am feeling to her because this might only be an admiration. But as the time goes by, little by little I fell in love with this person. Our first interaction is more likely on a very friendly start... say "hi" and "hello" to each other... exchange daily thoughts and sentiment about the everyday life.. and so and so. Then I haven't noticed that I am starting to like the person over the text I am receiving.
And there's a time that I became doubtful about her-because we all knew that we could have our "perfect you and i" over the virtual world. That stops me to further deepen my feelings about her. As anyone experiences that regret comes last, I have wasted my time ignoring her for several weeks because I've dealt with my own problems. And like a love story we have all watched, the time left for us to be together is not proportional to the amount of love we want to show to each other. I was able to have a job offer abroad. At first I really did not expect that to come, but still I am so lucky to have it now... then I am just waiting for the "processing" of my papers to legally work abroad. And then Cupid stroked the two of us at the very wrong time... I don't want to think that it is too late for us to start so undoubtedly I asked her love to be mine...
It was so hard to convince her because of all the factors a virtual love affair could give. Add to this the pressure given by the peers of both party. But I clanged to my fate to invest my trust and love to a person I haven't met before while thinking "she might be the one."Now, after dealing with each other and having the same feeling constantly for days... we have decided to better nurture the love and yield more trust to each other for these are the only reason we could depend to. Plus having a very loyal heart and putting God on the center, how perfect our relationship could be. Then at last... we planned to meet and have our first date... I don't know what will happen then but I won't regret to whatever it is because I've gambled so much to this casino of love affair.
Nevertheless, I am so happy for she makes me happy. Every morning she gives me the strength for a very busy day waiting for me. I started to care to someone not familiar to me... but not anymore for she became a part of me and my everyday life. She is so generous of giving me the smiles because of her jokes and childish things. I became more vibrant because of the inspiration I am getting to this person. And most of all, I started to feel the love that I was afraid of for a very long time. Thanks to this girl I conquered the fear and convert it to happiness and inspiration. I am praying to God to bless this relationship we have and to guide us to the right path. I am asking both of us to be faithful as much as possible and to refrain of doing something unfair to both of us. Well, I cross my fingers that this will work and I hope that it will last.
For the girl I have in my heart right now... I love you.
Life... well... I admit it... I got so careless again. Ouch! That really hurts! But I am just an ordinary person, just like anyone here on Earth, I am not perfect. Thus, I am always asking for the reason why I always slip on love.
