Chapter III
HE KEEPS ON BUGGING ME EVEN IN MY DREAMS
I opened my eyes and all I can see is darkness. Automatically I knew that I was dreaming that moment on. It is so silent… it is kind of comforting amidst the blindness I am having right now. Maybe I was too tired the whole day and from all the scenes I witnessed today, being tired is just an understatement. I decided not to wake up and take time wandering here in my dream; it was like a powerful drug that makes me want it more and more… who knows what might be able to happen here?
Light flashed and it was a total washout… No… no… no! I felt too afraid of loosing the comforting silence and the peace I am having… I don’t want it to shift to another scene, for I wanted it to be like this forever. I am running out of breath and it feels like I am being strangled. I am sure I wanted to shout out for help to anyone around but the words coming out of me are voiceless and empty. I desperately looked around and it was still dark… and the strangling is not stopping at all… and I almost loose it.
“Don’t take this away!” I revolted. Now my words are now audible at the scene.
“Shall I come back later?” a familiar voice replied. I knew right away whom the voice belong. That certain huskiness and the way humor is injected to the phrases… definitely it is Liam.
“No!” as I struggled to make it sure it was loud enough for him to hear. “Stay… please… doesn’t leave me here alone.” I pleaded. This is my dream now… so how come I still ask for something. I should be the one deciding on what will happen at every scene… no more boundaries and no one to consider at all. This dream shall be the best dream I will ever have. If not, it will be the worst of all the worst nightmares I had.
“If I stay… what shall I do here? I felt like intruding.” Liam asked. If in the real world, he might mean an argument already but this is different, the voice is so soothing like a summer afternoon lullaby.
“Why are you here” I asked him ignorantly. I started to feel breeze passing by me, subtle at first and then gets more noticeable as it passes.
“You called for me… I’m just doing what I was told to.” He answered.
“I haven’t.” I mocked.
“I told you... I shall come back ‘til you call for my turn.” The voice is not running out of patience in it.
“No! I don’t mean that way. Stay.” I now commanded. “Just be mine until it is possible.” I followed. That is what I am asking for since the beginning. Now that I exclusively have you here, I won’t let it pass just like that.
The breeze passed by again. I cannot tell whether it is cold or warm… I feel both sensations at the same time confusing my mind what to decide on how the wind feels like. A moment later it blew again… but something is with it… scent of lilac and lavender, I am pretty much sure about it. And then the scene shifted. A flash of light passed by with the last breeze. As I opened my eyes, the darkness was lost but still I can’t see anything… it is too bright I rather wanted to close my eyes. The breeze came back together with the scent of lilacs and lavenders… but I could here it passing now. I tried to decipher all the whistling and hushing of the wind as it passes by and I could here another sound, it sounds like I am at an open field with luscious greens. Then I found myself in the bliss of greens… yellows… and maybe purple and white too. It wasn’t too colorful but not so boring and colorless at all, you could tell the colors you see and now I could see dots of blue and hues of gray. Other than the blue sky and some white patch of clouds streaming above, the sun shines too bright but I can’t feel too hot as it has to be.
Suddenly the vision zoomed upward… revealing the entire field of lilacs, lavenders, and so many greens. I saw a tall tree by the northeast and a stream of calm waters by the south banks. I started feeling like falling little by little or maybe it is most likely the feeling of a landing plane. But there is no plane and I am not riding any… I could feel the strong wind against my touchdown and I could hear a surge every time I pass a cloud. The sensation is really like flying but it was more of a fall rather than a flight. I hit the ground all of a sudden… and it all went black as if I became unconscious or rather dead from falling from the sky.
I started gasping air desperately. My throat was dry from all the air that capacitated my lungs while I am falling. I tried opening my eyes but I felt too weak. I knew I crashed to the ground but it wasn’t that painful at all. My back feels like normal and I could feel I was lying on a bed. I tried to focus more on opening my eyes carefully not to wake up from this dream. Then I felt some other thing as well—a broad, hard, and warm thing crushing my left arm. A hand tapping my forehead and caressing face lightly followed it. The tapping and touching cradle down to my neck and back again to my forehead… and it was repeated over and over. Continued shiver was the only response my body admitted. I tried again on opening my eyes and see who I am with.
I opened my eyes and my vision started to clear up from a blurry scene. It was dark and I am inside a car—Liam’s Carrera. I jolted as soon as I came to my senses. I begged for a rewind and be brought back to my dreams again. It was the scene I was into earlier while I was out on a “date” with Liam. I suddenly thought that I may still be dreaming but it feels like I am very awake. There are no intensified sensations like in the dream and no bizarre feelings anymore. It really felt like so real. I could feel my own heart beats so strong just like the way it was earlier and my breathing keeps on changing from too highs and deep lows. Beside me is a godly creature that is in his deepest sleep. I can also hear his own breathing and every movement he does makes me shiver. I decided to play it up a little and check if he is really in a deep sleep. I slowly come closer to him and carefully pinched Liam’s gorgeous nose. He never frowned or anything so I guess he is really asleep.
I started the maneuver exactly the same way I did earlier inside the car: left arm in support and right hand in command. I shifted my body gracefully not to do any major actions that will move the whole car and shake the sleeping Adonis beside me. Now, I never planned and surely decided of not going down to visit the prince in his castle, but instead, I wanted to do something I really craving about. I then wondered how good will Liam is in kissing someone like me. I pushed myself closer to get a better access of his lips. All of my body is trembling already and I could feel sweat dripping from the nape of my neck. But like in my dreams, it was like the breeze which I cannot tell if cold or warm. I closed my eyes from the moment my lips are millimeters away from Liam’s lips. I started to imagine us in that luscious field of lilacs and lavenders. Then our lips collided. I tried to open Liam’s mouth to gain more control of that kiss. Out of the blue, a hand touched the back of my head and another pushed my back closer to Liam. I opened my eyes and I was startled to what I see… Liam is awake and the thing is, he is taking over the kiss. To my surprise, I loss the support from my left arm and landed at Liam’s hips sited sideways. I found both of my arms wrapped around his neck and frightfully I cannot take away my sight from his eyes. Liam’s gaze is not mad at all… I can tell that he is not pissed-off or anything at all. No moments passed any further when he suddenly pushed me closer to him again and crushed his lips into my lips.
It started really careful and every exchange of breath is partnered with a caress of his hands. I am getting carried away already… maybe I am really still in my dreams. I move my right hand behind his head and clutched my left hand on his back. I hugged him tightly as if I am going to be carried by a strong wind at any time. The kiss became more carefree and begun to be passionate. I never expected Liam to be as good as now. I felt too much of a roller coaster ride compared to what I’ve done earlier with the crazy rendezvous. I loved the warmth of Liam’s breath; it feels like there is a burning charcoal inside of his lungs. He kisses and moans at the same time… but the way he did wasn’t like the porn I had watched before, never sounded erotic to me. I am starting to run out of breath but he refuses to set me free to gasp for some air, instead he pushed more of his air while he returns my kisses. Moment further he started to move a little bit from my lips behind my ears then down to my neck and back again to my lips. It was so seducing I’ve fallen more into him and started to make my own moves. I started to unbutton his shirt until I almost reach his belt. I tried on setting myself in another pose but he never let loose of me. So instead of taking off his top, I left it on him. As soon we came back on kissing each other, I pulled my hands into his chest and started scribbling around his well, chiseled body. I pinched his nipples and go around his broad chest. I searched behind his muscled back and went upward to push his face harder against mine.
The scene of touching and kissing went wild to wilder. We keep on like that for so long I’ve felt bored and loss the track of time. I decided to go down to his pants and take it to the next level. But again, he insisted of not loosing the grab on me. Suddenly everything paused. Rain came down from the dark sky and every drop of rain that reaches the ground burst so loudly I cannot bare it. While the deafening shots of raindrops hit the ground, my memory started to falter. As rain goes down and each drop that reaches the ground shatter the part it touches… a little moment passed, I see my dream world disappear little by little until darkness reigned again. Darkness prevailed as well as the decadent rain… it never stopped, I could feel it drenching my body and I could hear it splatter into the ground. The scene stayed like that for so long I got sick of it. I felt so tired and weak but still I am sure I was standing. Liam is not beside me anymore and neither of the cars and all of the realities I had while kissing him and touching his great endowments. I craved for more… but I craved not of the kiss and the body but of the feelings that swirls inside my heart while our lips collide and we shared the same air so passionately. Then I could here sobs from myself and I started crying… The rain continued until the scene shifted. I opened my eyes and found myself sobbing in my pillows and traced some trails that are distinguished from my tears.
I am back in the reality but still the tears continued to ream on my eyes and the rain never did stopped. The fact of loosing that dream with Liam is not what I am sad about, but the truth that it will never be in reality forever in my life made me think that I’ve gone too far. That dream is over and I can’t be like a fool mussing over such wet dreams. As a resolute, I tried to fix myself up. I switched on the lamp and check on the clock, and it is now twenty minutes pass six o’clock in the morning. The rain is still dripping from the dark sky and I could here it batter the lanai of my pad. I turned on the television and tuned in with NBC to check out for some weather forecast… I am not pretty sure now if there is just a storm or maybe it is the end of the world.
What about school then? I mumbled on the note that if there will be suspension of classes for today, what will happen to the proofreading I had yesterday all day? I presided on the fact that I went nuts of re-doing the layouts just for the sake of today’s worth of news and now the rain will just take it for granted. My mind is now distracted by the fact that all of my hard works of yesterday will really go to the waste bin for nothing… and the crazy thoughts about Liam and that dream and that happening inside his car last night were all vanished.
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