HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

GUYS!!! 2008 became a pretty problematic year for everyone... but least of it not to be glad we are entering a new year again!!! Let us celebrate!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! WELCOME 2009!!!

Eustace and Jill at Silver Chair...

And I finished reading CS Lewis' Silver Chair last night...

Hehehe and to tell the truth... it was just like some other adventure stories on rocky mountains and slopes with giants and more creatures... What seemed exciting for me was on the part the adventure reached the underworld and their escape from it... and funny how I imagined it, was the part Eustace, Rilian, and Puddleglum were fighting with the great serpent a.k.a the Lady of the Green Kerttle...

Well... the first three books (as per production), are really magical... the other books that follows them looses its enchantment... but I think that was just a strategy and a preparation for the last book which is the Last Battle, for which everything in Narnia will be concluded and the return of the Pevensies... well... hoping for that... I have two more books to read before I start reading the last of the Narnia books...

Last night, actually early morning again, around 3:10 AM, as I finished reading The Silver Chair, I ventured on beginning the first eight chapters of The Boy and His Horse of Shasta and Bree... ahmm... the same feeling of reading The Silver Chair still linger on me while reading and lying on my bed, well, that's really a problem with me, I long for something for quite long that I always have a hard time dealing with it... I'm now on the part when the plans of the Calormen tyrants, Rabadash, Tisroc, and Ahoshta, were revealed and eavesdropped/overheard by Aravis and her BFF... hahaha... I felt sleepy and tired so I cut my reading and sleep...

As a result of getting bored from my hobby of reading last night, as I always wished of not getting those dreams forever in my life... hmmm... the events or as I say it glimpse of my past haunted again... well, of course with the same cast of antagonists and monsters... Now... I am missing of the dreams I had with the Cullens and Bella and Twilight saga influencing it... how I wish that my sleep to 2009 will fascinate me that I will long it to sleep forever as I wanted... hehehe... okay... I think that's for now... I have some readings to make later... and by the way... I am serving Bolognese Spaghetti, Fruit Salad, Fresh Fruits, Leche Flan, Crispy Fried Pork Pata for the New Year's celebration due midnight... hehehe I hope everyone to celebrate and welcome 2009 with all happiness and safety!!! Happy New Year!!! By the way... I forgot, it was very timely that while I am reading the Silver Chair, as far as I remember and if that's right, in the world of Narnia, they are also preparing for the New Year...

Poor Reepicheep!!! I'm so sad!!!

I forgot to add this to my earlier post...

On the Voyage of the Dawn Treader... on its ending, Reepicheep willingly took the adventure of going farther to the east alone... maybe or surely, when the film will be released soon, on the part when this will happen, I might cry or be very sad... for me, living a very big world alone is a hundred and one percent worser than of embarking a journey to an unknown world alone.

Reepicheep and I has some attitudes to share... brave... valiant... loyal... respectful... not to mention being a natural thrill-seeker... And I could feel him to be a good representation of myself... And after reading the Voyage of the Dawn Treader... one of the reason why there had tears running down my cheeks was because of him...

For me I could see my life on him and him on me... having a very minute appearance covering a humongous personality... and to journey a very big world... The moment the crew of the Dawn Treader were debating if they should go farther to the east and seek what lies ahead and if they will see Aslan's country, Reepicheep stood out and bravely volunteered himself, and for that, I am very touched. It seemed that it's not a big deal for him to journey along to somewhere no one and not once been discovered by whom which is better suited rahter than him... And it's really funny that he doesn't care at all... And for me, it takes more than a brave heart of doing so... that point in the story... I really became so much a fan of Reepicheep...

Yet... C.S Lewis, assured before the ending of the Voyage of the Dawn Treader, that Reepicheep was able to cross the "very end of the world of Narnia" and was safely confided to Aslan's country... the saddest part... he was never seen in Narnia... the good thing is... everyone rememebred him as a very brave "mouse"... and written in their history as the very first Narnian to seek Aslan's country...

"This is Home"
by SwitchFoot

I've got my memories
They're always
Inside of me
But I can't go back
Back to how it was
I believe now
I've seen too much
But I can't go back
Back to how it was
Created for a place
I've never known

This is home
Now I'm finally
Where I belong
Where I belong
Yeah, this is home
I've been searching
For a place of my own
Now I've found it
Maybe this is home
Yeah, this is home

Belief over misery
I've seen the enemy
And I won't go back
Back to how it was
And I got my heart
Set on
What happens next
I got my eyes wide
It's not over yet
We are miracles
And we're not alone


This is home
Now I'm finally
Where I belong
Where I belong
Yeah, this is home
I've been searching
For a place of my own
Now I've found it
Maybe this is home
Yeah, this is home

Long Lost Love...

Hi guys... well... I just finished eating dinner and taking a bath... yes.. yes... I overslept again and I just woke up from a fantasy dream... last night or rather the whole yesterday... I was lying in my bed and reading Prince Caspian and then The Voyage of the Dawn Treader... well... I had my reaction for Prince Caspian earlier... so this would be for the latter...

Ahm... to admit it... for me it's just a little exciting... I don't know... maybe because the older Pevensies aren't in Narnia and specifically in that series of the story... But really, I was still able to travel with the fantasy world of Narnia while reading the book itself... And there are so many revelations for me in this book... and as being an agnostic, hahaha I've been thinking if Aslan would be really Jesus on Earth and not in Narnia... whatever...

Yet... for me, every ending of each series has its "sad" but not really sad ending for the story... in The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe, the story ended when almost their lives were on its golden years already... the cliche was, they came back on the real world at the time they got used to the world of Narnia and being Narnians for more than 20 years I guess...and the worst part, as children and on the time they don't really like... well... In Prince Caspian, the saddest part was knowing Peter and Susan will not be able to come back to Narnia again... for me it is so much a misery of being condemned to a world you feel it is your real home and a place that makes you happy...and for them to leave a Narnia, a world where they found love, friends, and happiness... And in the Voyage of the Dawn Treader... ahm... as far as I could remember, Aslan said to the younger Pevensies, who aren't getting as young as before, that they might not be able to come back to Narnia anymore because they are getting older. I had tears running down my cheeks when it was the moment they were leaving Narnia already. For me it really hurts a lot when you are leaving a place knowing there are no more possibilities of going back forever...

Knowing that the next series of Narnia will be another story without the Pevensies anymore, I will still finish reading until to the last book which is The Last Battle... and I've heard that in this book, the Pevensies were called and summoned back by Aslan for their biggest and hardest adventure of all... well, I also heard that Susan wasn't there for some reason, and that reason became a very intriguing issue of all... hehehe I hope to remember it when I was on the exact lines of that intriguing part of the Last Battle....

Well... this post will due until here... I have more readings to make out of Narnia... I am now reading The Silver Chair with Jill and Eustace... I had a glimpse of the beginning chapters before I took a bath... I am now on the part when Jill starts her voyage down to Narnia after taking the task to Aslan.. well... Happy reading!!! Long Live NARNIA!!!

Too Fast...

And the year will going to end in a few days... together with it, the memories of this year 2008 will be left behind as a "past tense" forever. And for me, this time of my life passed too fast...
How can I forget a year full of so many things... things which are new to me... experiences I've never had before... feelings I never felt before... and all the foolish ideas I had and also the wonderful things I managed to have. Well, so to speak, even this year wasn't that beautiful as I expected, as the day for its ending comes, little by little I sort out every film of my life to decide which to remake next year and which are those I should keep forever.
Once in a while, there are always a point in my life that, really, I hated so much. These includes all the wrong perception of life, the bad plans and wrong decisions, some unpleasant memories with some other people, unavoidable embarrassments... and to whatever extent I wished to go back in time to make these events the way I wanted it, disappointments are always waiting for me.
I think I overdone it. I pushed myself too much that I never noticed of giving pain to myself and then reflecting it to other people. I do hope to ask for forgiveness and I know everything is forgiven. All swell that ends well...
As I set my foot forward to next year's tomorrow, many lists are written and still growing... expectations and hopes are getting much stronger... and for whatever reason, I want to make 2009 the best that I could ever have. Right now, as I write this post, there's an oddly feeling that I feel next year would be the last of my years... I don't know, it just suddenly came out from somewhere. But anyways, I do hope I will give myself whatever I wanted and live the life I ever wished for. I... maybe for next year, shall still have the same manners and attitude, same goals set in different ways, the same faith on the manner I know... and so many "same" things to preserve for I feel these makes me a better person.
And for 2009, yes... for 2009!!! There are so much to wait... literally... Ahm... films... books... travels... a new lifestyle... jobs... life... and love (I guess). But i am getting worried for my expectation of having all these plans in my hand and in my life. Maybe I got too scared, too hurt, and too hopeless this 2008 that I gave up on being very optimistic about my own life. And maybe there are so many disappointments that made me decide I should not dream anymore.
But everything in life changes... not every year... not next month... and not by seconds that pass... life changes too fast as fast you are making your decisions for your life.
So let us all wait for what is up ahead... let us be thrilled with every bit of excitement and celebrate every reason for living... for life you have right now is only once in a lifetime... maybe there will be dejavus but believe me... there's nothing in this world that happens twice...

BRANGIEN 2009 Calendar

WOW!!! I was very much amused when I saw this calendar making tool at MySpace earlier... hehehe... I was so interested I made out one for myself... Here it is.. I am so happy...

A VERY GOOD DREAM!!! BUT DAMN IT!!!

I have a headache right now... actually I just took a bath and ate my lunch... it is now 4:10 PM... hehehe I over-slept again!!! And breaking my record of longest sleep... Reason??? What do you think??? Of course, I'd dream of something I wanted... something I craved... but not the pork chops my friend Joan served last night but a dream about my perfect love affair... hehehe "influenced" and "themed" by Twilight Saga!!! Crazy right??? Very!!!

I had this dream that I was somewhat the male version of Bella Swan and there is a Vampire Girl who I've met on a party... then flashes of dreams... then... the dream I had when I was fourteen reemerged from the scene... that was... a very huge dome where white feathers are flying and raining... a pianist and a violin player renders a very lovely lullaby... then there was me on a spot-lighted space wearing tuxedo... and a very big white dove with blue strands on its wings flew from outside the dome and landed on a meadow with fragrant flowers ranging from hues of peach and marmalade... hmmm... and then, there in the background was "Let me Sign" by Robert Pattinson playing... and the dove chirp valiantly... and a lady step down from the dove's back and smiled at me... I know she is someone I don't know yet and someone who is different..from her appearance and all, she is "different".
She walked down an aisle while feathers are still flying all around the dome... the song keeps on playing over and over... and then... damn it... white flashed the entire scene and I found myself alone from a vast white space... hmmm... then new scenes show up... a university scene I guess... and there was the lady again... BUT the worst... the person I knew as my enemy was also present in my visions... I saw him talking with the lady I supposed to know the name... and they were laughing... and still having that happy conversation. They stopped for a while and stared to me, I blushed and I swayed my back on them.
After I looked back, they are gone... a new scene came up. I was sitting on a very old looking, antique dinning table... sitting in front of me was "him", my enemy, and in between was the lady... let me name her "Vamp Girl". We were eating... but I then had an omniscient view of the scene... the girl held my hand and touched my face, I saw her crying... and I saw "him" laughing... and the dream ended there...
Gosh!!! Why is this happening??? Why am I dreaming this good dream??? Yet! Why do "he" still shows up... after so many years of hate and grudges. And above all... who was the girl??? Who is she??? I am very curious about her... and how the hell she got a chance to know "him"??? Unluckyly, why does this man keeps on bugging me on my dreams? When will "he" vanish from my life...