I Hate Sad Farewells...

If I will be lucky enough... well... I will be leaving as soon and as early as Monday (January 19, 2009) for my new work destination... Boracay!!!

It is a really really great news for me and for everyone who knows me. I really wanted to travel and to give myself my own independence and my own life which is not preoccupied with mostly family matters...

But however the good news is, there are always sad farewells... and in my case, I'll just disappear from the scene... no farewells... no crying... no goodbyes... I really hate saying goodbyes...

Lately I am feeling so much lonely and very emotional for I am just counting hours before I leave my home... my life for almost 20 years... everything I have all my life... And then I'll embark on a journey alone and be a stranger to strangers. The saddest part is, I might not get a chance to see my very-missed friends... I've been doing all I could do contact each of them but it seems that every one of them are busy with their on lives... well... that makes me very sad... Yet, I do understand all of their reasons and I know how hard for them to manage their time and insert me into their schedules...

Anyways, and whatever happens, the journey will still start on the said date... and I can't do anything more about it... Now, I've been giving myself the most special time and taking preparations for this adventure of my life. This would be a real adventure... journey to a place I've never been, meeting the strangest people on the strangest situation... and maybe the most challenging part is, I'll get surrounded mostly by water. In fact, its not really a problem for I am a "water person", I am just having this queer feeling of being surrounded by water and having a limited space. Imagine it, a very huge island... isolated... and you hear the rushing of the waves all of the time... the sun is set so high, so bright, and scorching hot... wow... I hope I will survive being a cast-away.

But... as the time passes by and the clock eats up my remaining hours of being at home while the rest of my "used to" life changes every minute, I really can't help but to cry... thinking of what life will I have there and what will happen back here whilst I'm there... I thought before that I could live freely of worries about home when I get a chance to be away... now, I am starting to get home-sick already...

"I know, Bella. Believe me, I know. It's like you've taken half my self away with you."

-Edward Cullen (Twilight)

Hopes are high... I should not be too vulnerable like this for such things at being away from home... I should keep myself strong. I know they will be good even I'm not at home. There are always a first and in my case, I already had been away from home... I bet it has been a good practice for this time around. But I can't really ignore my worries at all... it is just like a mother worrying for her children when she goes to work and have the kids all by themselves at home... Well... wish me luck!!!

"Will of the Wind"

I spent half my life
Looking at the reasons things must change.
And half my life trying to make them stay the same.
But love would fade like summer into fall;
All that i could see was a mystery,
It made no sense at all.

The will of the wind, you feel it and then,
It will pass you blowing steady.
It comes and it goes, and god only knows,
You must keep your sails on ready.
So when it begins, get all that you can;
You must befriend the will of the wind.

I spent so many hours
Just thinkin' 'bout the way things might have been.
And so many hours trying to bring the good times back again.
And so it goes for lonely hearted fools;
They let their days just slipe away,
Until they give into...

The will of the wind, you feel it and then,
It will pass you blowing steady.
It comes and it goes, and god only knows,
You must keep your sails on ready.
So when it begins, get all that you can;
You must befriend the will of the wind.

And god only knows...

So when it begins, get all that you can;
You must befriend the will of the wind...