The Old World

Old World
By Brangien

Bring me somewhere… anywhere…
To a place without lines… and no points…
A geometrical illusion I never had known,
Maybe a place I thought I cannot draw.
Fly me freely… really…
Do me a favor… please let’s go…
In a point of nowhere… somewhere…
A place of no return… I don’t care…
Sing their Hymn… the old world’s song…
But do you know how… please don’t pretend…
And if you do… it do make us fools…
Let us start walking… to find that place…
No need to run… we we’ll surely get there anyways.
No need for worrying… I know we are ahead.
No need to panic… we are almost there.
One glance to the east…
And take another from the west…
Shook our heads to the south…
Don’t blink a sight from north…
Are you excited to see who’s waiting?
Don’t frown if the one’s isn’t there…
I’ll call everyone… but only those who cares…
One more minute to pass…
And every heartbeat you keep can go.
The story we set aside could flow.
No holding back… now let’s go…
We had arrive… to a place we wondered too long…
No need to be sad…
We are now at home…
To a place we know…
To the Old World we belong.

Wonderland

Wonderland

By Brangien

One night of fog and mystery,

A night of dreams and equities,

Someone called I stared out the sky,

And touched the mist on my mind.

I was hoping of escaping,

And planned not to comeback.

A world I lived from too much despair,

I wonder why it turned unfair.

Out of my sight I saw a place,

Somewhere that I don’t know,

A place that looks nice and safe,

Somewhere called “wonderland”.

Here I found a place,

Where a happiness has its own well,

A fountain of joy that showers over and over,

A marquee of friends that never disappears,

And stores where I can buy some love.

I kept on dreaming and hoping,

Until suddenly I got struck,

A stone from nowhere,

The stone of reality shot my head.

And tears came running down,

Disappointed and heart-broken,

I found myself slacking down the floor,

I found myself trapped from the truth.

Now I wonder,

When will wonderland call me again,

When will I be able to see such place,

And how to get passes for all my life?

It is plain and simple,

But it seems so hard for me.

I keep on dreaming and hoping,

I kept on fooling myself.

I just wanted to live a life,

A life with no regrets,

Life overjoyed,

Life endlessly.

In wonderland I felt,

The feeling of having everything,

Such acts that made me secured,

Somewhere I smiled freely.

In wonderland I found,

A place that cares for me,

No corners of sadness,

No spots for loneliness.

In wonderland I’ve gathered,

Friends who aren’t foes,

Foes who sided my name,

Group of people that never fades.

In wonderland I’ve learned,

Dreaming until the limit,

Wondering until I can,

Hoping until it last.

In wonderland, yes, in wonderland, I felt I am home,

In wonderland, no doubt, I felt I belong,

In wonderland, I know, a place that will never make me cry,

In wonderland, surely I feel, the place that I am looking for.

Myers-Briggs Personality Assessment Result


You're personality type is Introversion, Sensing, Thinking, Judging(ISTJ)
Summary

Serious, quiet, earn success by concentration and thoroughness. Practical, orderly, matter-of-fact, logical, realistic, and dependable. See to it that everything is well-organized. Take responsibility. Make up their own minds as to what should be accomplished and work toward it steadily, regardless of protests or distractions.


Detailed Result

ISTJs direct their energy towards the inner world of ideas and information. They try to clarify concepts and information, seeking to have as clear a knowledge as possible. They often place a lot of trust in experience, but also envisage future goals providing there is a clear pathway to that goal.

What makes an ISTJ tick?
The Dominant function is the perceptive one of Sensing. Characteristics associated with this function include:

* looking at information in terms of facts and details
* Focuses more on the here and now rather than possibilities for the future
* Feels comfortable in areas of proven experience
* Takes a realistic approach


The perceptive Sensing function is introverted. That is, Sensing is used primarily to govern the inner world of thoughts and emotions. The ISTJ will therefore:

* Seek to develop a realistic understanding of the world as it is, in the light of what he/she observes
* Be pragmatic in nature, constantly learning to adapt to the world as it is now
* Observe in a subjective way, selecting and relating facts that others would not, and seeing those facts more in terms of impressions and significance than pure fact .


The Sensing function is primarily supported by extraverted Thinking judgment, That is, Thinking judgment is used primarily to manage the outer world of actions and spoken words. This will modify the way that the Sensing is directed, by:

* focusing the (inner world) Sensing on impersonal facts and logical options
* tending to spot flaws and injustices
* making decisions on the basis of logical analysis that support the ISTJ's understanding of the world.


The classic temperament of an ISTJ is Epimethean, or Melancholic, for whom a basic driving force is duty, service and the need to belong.

Contributions to the team of an ISTJ
In a team environment, the ISTJ can contribute by:

* working hard and efficiently to complete tasks by the deadlines set
* sorting ideas and identifying those that are most practical
* applying a common sense approach to problem solving
* maintaining team focus on the objective
* contributing practical organisational skills
* applying procedures and methodologies
* applying relevant and realistic logical arguments


The potential ways in which an ISTJ can irritate others include:

* focusing too much on the current task at the expense of longer term or interpersonal issues
* not articulating his/her understanding of the situation
* not seeing the wood for the trees
* being too serious
* seeming to be inflexible
* not encouraging others to experiment or innovate
* not promoting his/her own ideas or achievements


Personal Growth
As with all types, the ISTJ can achieve personal growth by developing all functions that are not fully developed, through actions such as:

* articulating more of the ISTJ's own views
* developing a long term vision, that avoids focusing on details
* developing a greater understanding of how people feel
* changing things on an experimental basis to see if they can be improved
* learning to promote the ISTJ's ideas and achievements to others, recognising that others may well find them valuable
* making decisions on the basis of how others will feel, rather than objective considerations


Recognising Stress
As stress increases, 'learned behaviour' tends to give way to the natural style, so the ISTJ will behave more according to type when under greater stress. For example, in a crisis, the ISTJ might:

* find a place of solitude in which to think and work
* use tried and trusted means of solving problems
* direct or criticise others' efforts
* use pragmatic solutions at the expense of the long term


ISTJ Careers
The jobs/occupations that have a closer fit to those with ISTJ preferences:

Doctor/health care, Librarian, Entrepreneur/self-employed, Forces, Administrator

Story Writing...

I am hooked now on practicing my creative writing skills. I am doing a fictional story for almost 3 days now. I wanted you guys to read it as soon as I furnish the whole story.

By the way, the story is actually a fable about a parrot and a dog. I had the same kind of story before when I am taking up the creative writing lessons back in senior high. But this one I made sure to be different and really dramatic. Well... this actually mirrors my current situation on love.

I am trying my best to finish it as soon as possible. But collecting ideas and gathering up all my thoughts and feelings are even harder than I thought. So please be patient. I will let you know as soon I am finished... okay???

Reasons Unknown...

About my Burj Al Arab offer:

Hi guys... this is to update you about what is happening about my Burj al Arab application.

Right now I am still waiting for my Dubai Visa... it so happened that the processing took longer because of Ramadan. Eventually, i hope it will be fastened since the celebration is over. I hope to receive a good news one of these days. But for now, I am also clueless about the future in Dubai.

For those who keep on asking... please stop bugging me to answer you because even I don't know what to tell you okay... wait for my next update about this event.

Nevertheless, whatever the result will be... be happy for me whatever happens. Now, just to have a fall-back if ever the visa will be denied... I am looking for a good job so don't worry about me. I already applied to some establishments and I am just waiting from their response.

To let you know why I resigned from my last job. Well, I resigned because I felt that I badly needed some break. There are a lot of things which came up while I'm working at Gaudi. I also felt that I need to be with my family for a time since I've spent all year (2007 -2008) working hard for myself. I don't regret loosing a job for the sake of my family, my life, and my love. I might loose even more but I am ready to take it back once I am sure I am complete.

I am a person who just focuses on one thing. I want to be passionate into something that I am doing. Hope you guys understand. Thanks for all the concern and in the future... I will need more of your support.

Kamsahamnida!!!

Happiness...

As the years passes by... once I came on thinking that why do my life seems to be connected to so many people? Why can't I live as I wanted? Why can't I make myself happy for the fact that I do make people around me happy?
And answers came tolling...
"What is my purpose in life?" That was the answer i received.
But I guess I am too hard to myself for fulfilling such a purpose. I am still a person... and I need to love myself. Yet, when I am ready to give up on this, there will be an instance that will change my mind. Then I will go back to fulfill again my duties. So when will I have time to make myself happy? Or do I have to???
One day while I'm walking my way to work, I came across a bookshop... and I paid a visit. While looking around I found a book... "Things That Makes You Happy". And I see myself reading on a page. "What is your purpose in life?" as I read... laugh came after. Don't tell me that all my thoughts are in this book. If this book will just only suggest to know my purpose... well it is nonsense to continue reading. So I skipped so many pages. "If you think that your purpose is to make people happy, then you cannot make your own self happy." And I asked myself why?
Just like the sun who gives us heat and light. The sun is so powerful but it cannot benefit from itself and thus, as time flies, it dies because of its purpose. It seems that it is too hot and too bright when getting closer to the sun, so why does it not get hot nor blinded by itself. It does but the sun persist because it knows that so many depends on it.
Those people who are the source of ones happiness will not be able to drive some happiness back to themselves. There might be nothing you can do to make yourself happy... and I mean it. You don't have to make yourself happy.
Thus... as I read more the book I am holding. It tells me... "if you can't make yourself happy... then find someone whose purpose is to make you happy."

A New Day

"Every ending has a new beginning... for me... Everyday is a new day..."
What was life before everything happened in my life??? Where am I before I found a really crazy love??? What am I doing before things got tangled up???
Hahaha... it is really funny looking back to my footsteps... I always see how foolishly I am becoming every time I stepped on love. How I wished I was careful enough... and how I wish I never trusted too much. But unfortunately, I loved to my limits so eventually I got hurt... That's fine, I'll just note this happening as a one good experience how I got so crazy on the thing we call "love".
Life before... maybe five to six months ago... well, I could say that my life was in a very good state. I am working on the job that I like and even paid a lot for it. Having a very good time with friends and colleagues. Pampering myself with all life's goodness. Having the things that I like and doing things that I love. Dealing with my problems really really well and reaching a helping hand to someone's business. I felt really happy and successful for the life I had before.
But right now... I feel so empty. And I think I became to someone who is not qualified to be called as "myself". And to tell the truth... I really hate it.
So what can I do from now on??? Well, the first thing I should do is to eliminate the main factor that demotes me as a better person. Second is to focus everything on a goal while having a good plan on the side and some back-ups just to be safe. Then, third... ahm... bringing the pieces back together like what it was before. Fourth would be... enjoying the life that is waiting for me while doing steps one, two, and three. And lastly, keep on reminding myself not to make the same mistake again. Hehehe it is not bad at all to make some precautions for my fragile heart right... but damn these things!!! It is so hard to do... But I don't have any choice.
I hope I will be in good shape in no time. And I will be glad to tell everyone that I just come back eager and better.
Right now... I am officially "single".... and tomorrow will be a new day waiting for me...