When You're All Alone

If you feel alone, what are the things that you usually do to take away the loneliness that you feel? Hmmm... do you cry on a corner and ask why you were left all behind? Or you are the person who goes out and enjoy a happy moment himself.
What is usually the reason of your loneliness? Is it that you feel no one cares for you or just simply everyone were all busy to hang up with you?
Then how do you manage being lonely? Do you keep it to yourself or are you the type who goes out and just enjoy a happy moment even by yourself?
Once or twice in our life... actually there are a lot of times we will feel being lonely. Loneliness brought of being left behind, being left-out, and having yourself too occupied by the things that makes you so lonely. It is normal for someone who is affectionate for someone who wants to be in a crowd, someone who feels that he need to be surrounded, or to someone who used to be with a companion.
It really feels so nice joining your friends do so much activity... share of thoughts, playing, laughing, and all the things your group constantly do. Nice, it is always a good thing being with your friends right? The feeling on a social crowd... when was the last time you feel it?
It is a matter of fact... all of us needs to have social life, but there are also chances that being alone makes it feel better than joining a lot of peers. We are oblivious of the things that we could do while we are alone... just like knowing and discovering more secrets about yourself, looking for some adventure, or somewhere that will give you a new meaning of yourself.
So when you are all alone or you just feel lonely, do not worry... it is not only you who feel that on the moment! Just cheer up and look around you! There might be things that could make yourself busy. Don't get impatient for your friends being so much attached to their own worlds right now... they also need to have their own time for themselves... a time without you and your friends. Being alone for a moment is not that bad... what should make you worry is being alone for the rest of your life...

A Good Life

Have you ever wished that what if you could choose the life that you like? A life that will always favor on you? A life you always wanted?
In my twenty years of living, I came across to many ups and downs of my life. And there are so many times I became regretful about my own life. But there are also times that I feel so much fortunate having a good life compared to some other people. What will I do if ever I could draw the life I wish I have...
If I will be born again... I still want to live a normal life. "Normal" means a life balanced with fortune, goodness, misery, etc. But I want to replace my power of making people happy to try a new skill... the power of love. Most of the time, I make people happy. Making them happy in all the means that I know. Showing them the goodness that I have. Sharing the gifts that I could share. I feel happy for them every time I am successful with my goals for them. But inside I am thinking of something... why do I still feel empty when I am able to make someone happy??? Maybe it is the fact that happiness from making someone else happy is far more different from the happiness as a product of love.
Through my journey, I had my own share of story about love. There are memories that I won't forget, there are times that I really want to erase, and there are events I wish to happen again. With all that, still I am trapped on the place where I am not familiar with. A place where sadness meets me. When I will have the opportunity to write a new story of myself, I want to put all the happy scripts... no dull moments... everything is all about love and being happy.
Life depends in our decision. God gave us the chance to write our own stories but He gave us the theme, that would be our destiny. Everyone has their own dilemmas on their "play", everybody needs to be in the "revalida". But, what will set your novel apart from anything else, is when you write it with all your heart. The readers will see for sure... how amazing a story you have wrote.

Friends Forever...

Hmmm... what will you feel if you think after all the miseries that happened (after a storm), it seems that everything in your life turns so good and so right. Yes, it really feels so good having a brighter day everyday.
I have forgotten all the unfortunate things of the past... and I have reconciled with a person... and that would be the one who turned to be my best friend. Knowing what happened before makes me bitter on the earlier years but I feel so burdened loosing a friend. So why should I keep the pride than a friend right?
It really took time for us to conceive. Well, if you know the whole story you will understand. But we are so young when that happened, we are still on the a wrong comprehension of life and love before. Now that we get more mature enough, had our own lives and own experiences about love, gladly, we grew better. It is really funny that before we almost killed each other but right now, we are making everything to be sworn brothers. It is so nice to have a best friend that could help you in everything and in any ways.
To my best friend... dude... thanks for always helping me... and being there for me. I am so happy having you as my best friend.

Unexpected...

I think it is normal for a couple to fight... which is not right is when you don't ever fight... That is when the "trust" for each other comes.
When I watched a movie, I fetched a saying "In a relationship, romance should only be second to friendship." Having your partner more of a best friend than a lover makes sense. When the romance is gone, that is when things all go wrong... but if you stay best of friends, you still have the trust to each other. Love always change, you don't know if the feelings you feel right now will be the same after a minute or an hour. So it is important that the two of you remain friends forever. Then after that, you could start loving each other again.
Thus, having a peace of mind than being paranoid is always a help to anyone. On my situation, I got blinded too much of "everything" that made me closed to any reasons. As I said, trust is needed to make a relationship work. Well, I am not perfect and I am not a professional when it comes to love, that is why most of the time... I am on the roller coaster ride of my life... We need to be open and understanding to everything our partners have to say. Reasons are not there just to ignore it, it should be fully accepted.
Love has so many unexpected courses. It is our decision if we are going to have any plans or not. We cannot tell where are we going holding it and until when can we hold on it. It is really unexpected so why care for what will be happening next. Give a big TRUST to your partner and gamble everything that is left to you. But many says that you should leave something for yourself. Really, I don't know. L.O.V.E is really a C.R.A.Z.Y thing. Hehehe, but don't be a liar... everyone likes to feel "in-love"... it is like craving for chocolate for a week and then indulging yourself with chocolates in just few minutes. Why regret if you feel good about something?

When Love Starts To Fade...

Life... well... I admit it... I got so careless again. Ouch! That really hurts! But I am just an ordinary person, just like anyone here on Earth, I am not perfect. Thus, I am always asking for the reason why I always slip on love.
Love made me feel so wonderful... a really nice feeling to feel. I think that feeling blinded me from seeing the true form of it... then I got hurt. I hoped this was it, unluckily, another strike for me. Yes, right now I feel very very sad.
And the funny part was, last night, I am so carried by the movie "Definitely Maybe" a friend recommended me to watch. I got a new view about love, destiny, so on and so... But now, I can't think of the reason why I feel so sad... and I can't write a good one here because i feel so uninspired. All my thoughts and all my feelings are shattered inside me. This is me... I am so careless when it comes to love. But I am thankful to God that He showed the true face of love to me before I get too much hurt like before. I want to move on really really quick... for I feel really ashamed to myself why I let this to happen.
I showed a true love but I received a fake stone. I keep myself exclusively for the person I love but I am being played by love. Oh my God!!! I want to shout out all what I feel: love, anger, shame... But I am still hoping that what my instinct tells me is wrong, I really love her already... and if this won't really work, I won't torture myself like before, I will be manly enough to face it. I am so mad... I am in pain... But still I am in-love and hoping I am dreaming... When love starts to fade, how will I make it return?
This is life...

When You're In-Love, Everything Will Change...

It is so nice being in-love. Everything I see becomes so wonderful. All the sounds around me plays as a sweet music. I smile most of the time... also laughs. I am lively and inspired. It is really an amazing feeling... LOVE.
Yes it is true, when you are in-love, everything changes. From your prospective of life, the way you live your life and the concern about other people, your schedule, plans and dreams... almost everything... right? But I am thinking... what if the love ends? What will happen next? And what will happen to the changes undertaken??? Well, that's a problem most of us don't know how to face but the only thing to do is to start all over again. Yet, we do whatever possible and also the impossible things just to keep and protect the LOVE we have so it won't end and the dilemma of "restarting" will not appear...
In my case, I am the type of person who wants everything and anything to be planned and to run smoothly. I really hate unexpected events and even surprises... so of course, fate really plays well with me... my love started to change everything to me... I have these "extra" tasks which are really not in my planner but still written on the top of the list. I never regret with those things for that makes me extremely happy. I know it is LOVE... well, it is really love guys... There are also times I get doubtful about some things, if it is proper to do or simply is it fine... Well, as everyone tells me, when we are in love, we tend to do crazy things. But after that is a priceless moment with your partner for making him/her happy by doing crazy things for the person you love. Hmmm... it is so good to be in-love...
I want to share my happiness to everyone... So friends of my blog, find love and get in-love!

My Girl... My Luv... My Inspiration

Do you believe in fate? Well, I also don't believe on it before, not until I personally experienced it. Ahm... I guess this is one of the rare chance that a person will have on his entire life and the next would be on his or her new life. But for me... I think I found someone whose fate is tied with me... And she is the one who gives me now the inspiration and the love I really need the most...
I just met her over a well-known social network. I think that was three to four months ago when I first saw her viewed my profile. So, as a return, I visited her own profile and I got curious about her... and I bravely send her a message asking for her mobile number... then there's the start of the connection. At first, I am so hesitant to pursue what I am feeling to her because this might only be an admiration. But as the time goes by, little by little I fell in love with this person. Our first interaction is more likely on a very friendly start... say "hi" and "hello" to each other... exchange daily thoughts and sentiment about the everyday life.. and so and so. Then I haven't noticed that I am starting to like the person over the text I am receiving.
And there's a time that I became doubtful about her-because we all knew that we could have our "perfect you and i" over the virtual world. That stops me to further deepen my feelings about her. As anyone experiences that regret comes last, I have wasted my time ignoring her for several weeks because I've dealt with my own problems. And like a love story we have all watched, the time left for us to be together is not proportional to the amount of love we want to show to each other. I was able to have a job offer abroad. At first I really did not expect that to come, but still I am so lucky to have it now... then I am just waiting for the "processing" of my papers to legally work abroad. And then Cupid stroked the two of us at the very wrong time... I don't want to think that it is too late for us to start so undoubtedly I asked her love to be mine...
It was so hard to convince her because of all the factors a virtual love affair could give. Add to this the pressure given by the peers of both party. But I clanged to my fate to invest my trust and love to a person I haven't met before while thinking "she might be the one."Now, after dealing with each other and having the same feeling constantly for days... we have decided to better nurture the love and yield more trust to each other for these are the only reason we could depend to. Plus having a very loyal heart and putting God on the center, how perfect our relationship could be. Then at last... we planned to meet and have our first date... I don't know what will happen then but I won't regret to whatever it is because I've gambled so much to this casino of love affair.
Nevertheless, I am so happy for she makes me happy. Every morning she gives me the strength for a very busy day waiting for me. I started to care to someone not familiar to me... but not anymore for she became a part of me and my everyday life. She is so generous of giving me the smiles because of her jokes and childish things. I became more vibrant because of the inspiration I am getting to this person. And most of all, I started to feel the love that I was afraid of for a very long time. Thanks to this girl I conquered the fear and convert it to happiness and inspiration. I am praying to God to bless this relationship we have and to guide us to the right path. I am asking both of us to be faithful as much as possible and to refrain of doing something unfair to both of us. Well, I cross my fingers that this will work and I hope that it will last.
For the girl I have in my heart right now... I love you.